We Got Married… Now What?

Getting married is one of the most exciting events of a person’s life. You get to spend the rest of your life with your greatest love and your best friend. It’s a profound moment and one that I’ll never forget.

But when it’s all over, then comes the big question— what’s next?

After all of the literal blood, sweat, tears, and planning that goes into a wedding, in an instant it’s done. For some it’s a moment of relief. There’s no more planning to do, no more decisions to be made, no more conversations to be had about napkin colors and flower arrangement height. For others, a wedding being over brings sadness that the fun is over, or playing the ‘Monday Morning Quarterback.’

I fall into the first category— I was glad for it to be over. That’s not to say that I didn’t enjoy every minute of my wedding, I was just glad I didn’t have to keep planning it and thinking about it and agonizing over every detail. After spending the whole day talking to 140 of our closest friends and family, I was excited to not talk to anyone, instead spending two weeks on a beach in the Caribbean with my new husband.

Having lived together before getting married, day-to-day, nothing much changed. We’d still have the same routine, but I will say that something did and does feel different. I can’t quite put my finger on exactly what it is, but I think it comes down to the concept of being bound together for life that sort of differentiates pre-marriage life from the rest of life.

So now what am I doing?

When we got back from our amazing Caribbean adventure, we started the process of moving from NJ to NH and have been here for the past month or so. After planning and executing the wedding, you could say that this was the next major logistical event to orchestrate. (I’m starting to sense a planning theme in my life.) Having moved quite a bit in the last few years, I can tell you quite honestly that moving is truly terrible, even when everything goes smoothly. But that’s a post for another time!

ANYWAY- The moral of the story is that our wedding was amazing, and once it was over, I’ve been almost immediately onto the next event, though definitely (thankfully) not as large-scale. Enjoy every minute of it and enjoy the calm after the storm… which can also be considered the calm before the next storm… Either way, take it all in.

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It is what it is

If you know me in person, you know that I say this all the time. I even have a bracelet that says it. It’s my daily mantra and reminder to let things be as they are.

But what happens when you don’t like how things are??

This is a question that I struggle with, because I really am not sure of the answer. I think in my yogi-philosophical brain it makes sense to say that you just have to let the situation be what it is and it will pass and become better eventually. Though this sentiment may be true and rather insightful (if I do say so, myself), real-life me is thinking that this is bulls***.

Some stuff in life can super suck and maybe you don’t want to always “live in the moment,” or whatever. It’s hard to pull yourself out of reality and step back for a minute into “rational” thinking that the sucky stuff will pass. Sometimes you just want to get out of a situation and into a better one, rather than waiting around for the storm to pass.

So why do I constantly say “It is what it is?” Am I not just contradicting myself?

Simple answer- because despite the fact that I don’t like some situations, I do need to accept what’s happening in order to move forward. Put it this way- if you’re in denial that anything is happening, then there’s nothing to change, right? If you don’t accept what’s going on as the truth of the situation, then you can’t do much to improve where you are.

If you accept the situation for what it is, you’re saying “this is the deal and I want to do something about it.” From there, you can take steps to improve whatever spot you’re in.

So it’s not really contradicting myself. If anything, these two concepts are complementary to each other. It’s expanding upon the concept of letting the situation be exactly what it is, and taking it further to embracing the suck and moving forward.

I guess the point here is that you can allow a situation to just BE, while also seeking improvement or forward-motion. The acceptance of it is key, because as soon as we accept what’s happening, we can move on.

The Struggle Is Real.

The other day, a great friend of mine responded to one of my first posts saying, “Your   blog is exactly what I needed today and like every day… It’s a really important topic. I feel like not enough people talk about it. I’m really glad you’re writing about it. I need it.” We then proceeded to commiserate about the fact that neither of us feels like we truly have our life together, but act like we do every day.

So if, when addressed on a 1:1 basis, we think it’s a good idea to talk about the fact that we’re struggling to pull our lives together, why is it so taboo to speak about it more publicly? Why do we feel like we need to constantly have our shit together?

Because we refuse to talk about our feelings. A movie cliche, yes I know, but hear me out. By refusing to acknowledge that everything might not be going great, we can’t take the steps to make life as great as it can be. If you’ve already made this realization, what comes next? Let’s just stop pretending.

To “fake it ’till you make it” or pretend that everything’s fine isn’t necessarily the answer to this ever-burning question of whether or not we’re properly progressing in life.

Talking about it, writing about it, reading about it, and just admitting that everything’s not all sunshine and rainbows all the time I think is a great first step in making a positive change. It’s acknowledging that there is room to grow and allowing others to help us figure out how. Sometimes we need a little push or a little company in our struggles, and the best place to go is to friends experiencing the same stages in life…. but if we refuse to talk about it, how do we even know that they are?

I say go ahead and assume that they have their own struggles, too. Open up a conversation and I guarantee it’ll be met with “no way, me too!” because they’re most likely feeling the same way. When we open up the conversation we can start to realize that everyone else is just acting, too, and we can finally start to feel like we’re not a failure for reconsidering a career choice or still buying your clothes at Target instead of Saks Fifth Avenue.

5 Things to Look For in a Relationship

I’m going to preface this post by saying that I am currently engaged to a wonderful guy, and although things are going great now, I have certainly had more than my share of terrible experiences with relationships.

The prime example would be that I dated a convicted felon. Okay, maybe that description is a bit harsh, but I did knowingly go out with a guy who had stolen… a chalice… from a church… BEFORE we were dating. Long story short, we dated for about five months, during most of which time I was away at college, and when we broke up he proceeded to send me messages and texts and try just about every which-way to get in contact with me LONG after an acceptable mourning time for our deceased relationship.

Anyway, what I’m trying to say is that everyone’s got bad relationship stories, but not everybody has good ones.

So what does this mean when it comes to finding a great relationship?

1- Look for someone who supports you. No, this does not mean someone who always says “yes, dear,” and goes with whatever plan you’ve concocted that day. This is a person who will push you toward your dreams and goals and reel you back in when you stray from a path that is good for you.

2- Look for someone who makes you feel good. Support doesn’t necessarily mean it feels good. Think tough- love. Supportive, yes, but maybe you don’t want someone who only supports you through these means. Maybe you do want tough love all the time, but don’t want someone who supports you by always talking about your feelings. Maybe you do. In other words- figure out how you best receive support, then look for someone who best gives support in a way that matches your needs.

3- Look for a partner who pushes you. Every one of us has things we need to work on. For me, it is that I am all over the place. I start off on a career path or a diet or a workout plan, etc., try it for a few weeks or months and then go off in another direction. I needed someone to be a grounding presence for me. Someone steady. I also needed someone to push me to open up and talk about feelings. Which brings us to the next criteria:

4- Look for a person who you can open up to. Self- explanatory, right? Find someone who you are comfortable enough with to reveal your deepest, darkest secrets.

5- Look for someone you’re attracted to. By this I mean someone who you find attractive on a physical level, sure, but also on a spiritual level. At a certain point, usually just beyond the “honeymoon phase,” for me, I’d always have an intuitive sense of whether or not the relationship was good for me through some form of a gut feeling. Usually I’d figure out that it wasn’t, but stay in it anyway, but that’s beside the point. Find someone who you find yourself still wanting to be around after the “honeymoon phase.” Someone who makes you happy and makes you look at them the way you look at a giant bowl of mac and cheese. Makes you smile, right? That’s the gut feeling to look for.

These suggestions are by no means hard-and-fast rules. They’re things I should have looked for in relationships, and ultimately ended up stumbling into that hopefully you can stumble upon, too!

What is a Quarter Life Crisis and Am I Having One?

A quarter life crisis is a stage of life, usually right around your 20’s, when the world turns upside-down and you find yourself questioning everything. This can include anything from “Am I spending too much money on wine?” to “How do I find a job I don’t hate?” and “How the heck are most of my friends married and I’m still single as a pringle?”

So the answer to the second part of this ever-imposing question, is probably yes. If you found this blog, you’re probably having some form of a quarter life crisis. You’re probably somewhere in your 20’s, stumbling from brunch to work to an apartment you can barely afford.

Our twenties are a time of excitement and wonder, allowing for a sense of self-discovery as we set ourselves up for the rest of our lives, whether that be in our careers or personal lives. It’s awesome, but also terrifying.

If you can identify with any of this sense of questioning and self-discovery, then you are probably having a quarter life crisis, too. The best part, though- you’re not on your own.

I’d venture to say that most people go through this at some point- Some figure out their lives before or during college, some wait until a midlife crisis in their 50’s, but now is really the time to figure it out. You’ve already gone through your stupid teenage and college years, blundering through social situations and desperately selling your soul to get hired in any job available, regardless of what it is, so this is the time to mess up and get your hands dirty and figure out life one day at a time.

So yes, you are probably having a quarter life crisis, because the rest of us certainly are!